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Mon, May. 8th, 2006, 04:20 am
The moments I've been dreading have almost arrived.

I've been somewhat sparse lately. Well, I'm not going to apologize about it, in fact, you'd better get used to it, because I'm not going to be here for the next few months. I'll still keep up on Livejournal and check email at least once a week, but I'm kind of boned on decent Internet connectivity between semesters. That means I'll write longer (but fewer) entries until September. Also, I'm going to be a little lonely, as I only a couple of friends back home, and they're as busy as I am, so you'll have to keep that in mind in case I get a little nostalgic or otherwise strange during that time.

We've just now entered the dreaded finals week, and I feel guilty: I have only a few things to do, and I have barely started them -- everyone else is rightfully stressed out finishing final projects and studying while I hardly do anything. One of my classes has already concluded, and I only have to study for one final, finish a paper, and do an afternoon computer design job (plus prepare for a presentation on the same). I could have done this last week. How lazy am I? Thiiiiis lazy.

I'm wondering whether or not I have a job to come back to this summer. I was told, over the phone, that I was gaurenteed it, and I just had to send in the application. After some unneccessary stalling and confusion on my part, I sent it in, but they sent it back reporting that no positions were available. Very confusing: I'm kind of in with them, so I'm thinking there's some confusion on the orginizational side. I'll talk to them tomorrow; hopefully, there hasn't been some sucks-to-be-you catostrophic change that leaves me with no job to come home to, leaving me with no money, ruining my hard-worked-for housing arangement for the Fall semester. Somehow, I'm uncharacteristically unworried.

Maybe I'm still giddy from my good critique in Advanced Drawing. I've still got a long road ahead of me, but my skills are sharpening. I'm getting pretty good at still lives and life drawing, but my illustrative skills are just kind of hovering upwards. That's worrying: I'm going to put more focus on recreationally doing digital stuff, and see if I can't get myself to live in my sketchbooks semi-permanently. Right now, I've got some bad habbits, spending a few days in a row obsessively sketching random stuff (which I enjoy oh-so much) and getting really neat ideas, but then I'll abandon it for a almost a week. I have to break that binge-purge waveform. Why do I do it? I think it has something to do with getting really busy, and feeling like it's a burden to just sketch, and that feeling of burden builds until it bursts. I'm going to spend some time alone to figure this out.

I would show you what I've been doing for my classes, but a) it isn't terribly interesting, all life drawings and scraps of admitingly boring and sub-par computer 2d-design stuff. No, I can't scan the life-drawings: they're just too big. I really need to do more recreational stuff, the kind of things that I want to do -- that's how you really develop and how you ...wake up your creating-atman? I really don't have the language to describe it.

Important point reiterated: I'll be leaving Thursday afternoon, so if you want to talk to me, let me know now, because communication will be shaky until September, got it?

Mon, May. 8th, 2006 12:22 pm (UTC)


Mon, May. 8th, 2006 12:24 pm (UTC)

Oh, goodness, I know. :/ Hopefully, next semester will leave me more receptive to talking to people a sixth of the planet's surface away.

Mon, May. 8th, 2006 12:30 pm (UTC)

Goddamn I love that icon. I always hope you use it.

Mon, May. 8th, 2006 12:53 pm (UTC)

Yes, I'm always looking for opportunities to use it. I'm also trying to figure out where it came from. I love obscure, expressive stuff like that. I should draw my own damn icons, though. Everyone else has stuff they did, and I know I can do it... I'm just so lazy and bashful.

Mon, May. 8th, 2006 12:54 pm (UTC)

I should draw icons, too!

...but I can't draw.

Mon, May. 8th, 2006 03:46 pm (UTC)

Best fortunes to you, you...you, you.
*Clears vowel buffer*

Anyway, here's hoping things go well for ye.

Mon, May. 8th, 2006 08:58 pm (UTC)

Good luck with everything!

Oh, I stayed up all last night reading Jenniverse. :3 I hadn't gone exploring there since 2003. It's good to see the author is doing well. I don't think I'll be returning to the forums, but "To Save Her" is a damn fine comic.

Tue, May. 9th, 2006 02:34 am (UTC)

I'm always curious how her comics read in big chunks instead of one part after another. Extremely fast-paced, I'd imagine.

Speaking of comics, I finally got the first trade book of The Invisibles. You're right: this is great stuff! I wish I had bought more of it, so I wouldn't have to go very far over summer to find the rest. I'd say it's five times more substantive than Tank Girl, but 5 X 0 is still =, you know, 0. :3 Not to say that Tank Girl isn't any good, just that The Invisibles has that thoughtful chewy center that I feel my fiction needs. (Strangely, they're both built around the same themes, just one actually executes it, while the other sort of... goofs off.) Ironic how Tank Girl's pretty art never enters the equation. Substance over style?

Tue, May. 9th, 2006 03:59 am (UTC)

Bah, I always liked the style of Jill Thompson. Though Phil Jiminez will always be the definitive Invisibles artist.

- Yomatsuri

Tue, May. 9th, 2006 01:12 am (UTC)

No more late night conversations about weird stuff? T_T;

Tue, May. 9th, 2006 02:23 am (UTC)

Well, of course they'll be more, just not for a couple of months.