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Sat, Dec. 23rd, 2006, 05:33 pm
An open letter:


We've never talked, or we don't talk much, and I'm unsure as to how to start. Maybe it's fear, or just an excess of caution, but instead of directly approaching you, I wrote this up, and hoped it would get to you, or by pure social chance, happen to have some effect on you.

I've been watching you for a couple of years now, even though you haven't noticed me. You are an interesting person, and have always left me impressed with your abilities and thoughts. Even though I don't approach you, online or off, I still want to let you know that, leaving me conflicted. So, I wrote this up, and hoped it would get to you, or by some trick of fate, have some effect on you.

Maybe I'm afraid of displeasing you, or that our exchanges will somehow be unpleasent, or that I somehow will give you some mental disease, like how you're not supposed to touch baby birds, and you'll be touched by darkness. Maybe by thinking this way, by playing it safe, I'm denying other possiblities, for fear of the worst. Instead, I wrote this, even though you haven't noticed me, I wrote this up, and hoped you might find it, or that, somehow, its message would carry through to you.

Thank you.

Sun, Dec. 24th, 2006 04:39 am (UTC)

The only caution I have about this message is, while it's a truly excellent sentiment and made me smile... in my experience damn near everybody sits on their hands and thinks, "Well, he can't possibly mean me, and if I stand up and recognize it, I'll sound presumptuous. So I'll just sit here and hope this altogether swell person and I get a pretense to talk to each other... someday." Mamihlapinatapai. As a confessional, this message is awesome. As an icebreaker, just make sure to leave an explicit clause for us ordinary folks to reach out and hug you, too, without picking up the weighty mantle of "interesting person." :) I know you've always been high on the list of people I've wanted to get to know better, though we've just kinda danced on each other's peripheries for years...

Also, ^______^ and thank you for saying this. If it's any consolations, I've gotten myself stuck for YEARS in feelings like you're describing, hesitating for too long to approach people I've liked, and any step in the direction of getting people closer is a good one.

Sun, Dec. 24th, 2006 05:06 am (UTC)

Seconded :)

Sun, Dec. 24th, 2006 08:24 am (UTC)

Bah, you were that person for about a year until axonfuel Of The Everchanging Name bullied me into finally talking to you. As I said to Moment, why hasn't events like that encouraged me to get out there and talk to the people? Damn you, Saint Skinner, I'm not operating on my environment at all!